It's so hard to wake up from that and realize it's never going to happen.
I fucking hate it.
Why is my head doing this? I don't want THAT. I'm terrified of THAT.
THAT isn't fucking REAL.
Please, just let me stop dreaming. It shouldn't hurt like this, or at all.
I'm losing my new "group of friends". The four of us.
I can't keep the secret. Somebody has to tell; I won't, but I want to.
He's not even truly my friend, but he has to fucking know.
Once a cheater, always a cheater.
You two did it and it's going to affect me.
I'm so fucking selfish...
Oh, BTW, I was on vacation last week. If you noticed that I wasn't here anyways.
Thanks everybody for the comments. With this whole "teenage angst" think I've got going on, you guys make me feel... young.
Really though, I love all of you, and sometimes you're the only think that makes me feel OK.
P.P.S. (It is two Ps, right?)
My birthday is coming up. 22 days + 1 hour + 45 minutes and I... will be able to get my license.
Okay, lol, fuck. I just thought I should clarify that the cheating thing with my friends has nothing to do with me. I didn't do anything, which is why I'm selfish for being upset. The three of them are the ones that are going to get hurt when it all gets out... Actually, only one of them will be getting hurt then, because it was the other two.
Our "tight little group" shall be no more soon.