(Can You Feel My Heart -- Bring Me the Horizon)

Sunday, July 17, 2011

Fear and fragility.

Is fragility a word?

I feel like I'm just in an awkward, middle state.
I'm sad, but not exactly; I'm pissed, but not really; I want to cry and scream and throw some sort of tantrum, but I won't.
It's messed up.
And at the same time that I don't want anybody to acknowledge the fact that I'm cracked, fatigued, and not always stable, I really crave having somebody here to say that it's okay.
I don't want anybody to touch me, but...

The scab on my head is itchy.
I want to rip it off.
...Will it bleed again?

I haven't been talking to Axel. He's been annoying me more than ever.
Everybody's been annoying me, sort of.
Not really.
I don't know.

This is going nowhere.



  1. I can totally relate- I hate that uneasy feeling that you can't explain. hope you feel better hun. xoxoxo.

  2. Fragility is totally a word, for the record, haha.
    I can relate, though; that uneasy feeling that no one can ever explain is really difficult to deal with.
    I only hope that you feel 100% again soon!
    Stay positive, stay beautiful! <3

  3. I changed my post at the beginning so it wasn't so... um... embarrassing for you. I'm sorry. I wrote it quick and wasn't thinking. :)

    Scream into your pillow. Maybe you'll feel better. Take a nice, long hot bath and scream into the water. Weird things like that help me release anger and tension. Especially when it's too hot outsde to go run.