(Can You Feel My Heart -- Bring Me the Horizon)


Wednesday, September 14, 2011

Sex, bitches, and school.

Well, hey there.
I know I just made a post, like, a few days ago... but I think I might actually be back now.
Like, to posting daily or almost daily...
I keep on forgetting how good it feels to get all this shit out, even if I'm just throwing it out on the Internet.

Anyways, school started last Tuesday.
It's going... okay, I guess. My classes aren't horrible, nor are my teachers.
My friends, on the other hand, could use a good punch in the tit / kick in the balls.
Not all of them, but a lot of them... most days.
They've all got something to bitch about!
Christine's got some daddy issues; Juice has all around issues + a "concussion"; Jane apparently started smoking and doing drugs over the summer, because of "other people" and won't ever stop talking; Axel "has asthma"....
Need I go on?
And it's like they all called each other up the day before school and planned to pile all this on me.
Like, yeah, I like to help people... but if you're going to not take my advice or listen to me at all, then don't keep coming back to me with your ugly life stories!
We all have problems, I just don't advertise mine.

LOL. My cat was just trying to scratch his ear, and he fell over...
Socute. < 3

Anyways, I don't think I should be bashing my friends, since they're pretty much all I have.
One thing that major sucks is that the friends I've got this year aren't ones that I really click with...
Like, we clash more than we mesh.
Sort of isn't good.
I mean, I've still got Jean and Beth, but they're not always on the top of my 'BFF List'... sadly.

Anyways, I've got a legit question for you guys.
I mean, it will sort of only be legit and relevant for me, but if you guys were in my situation... would you have handled this the same way, or differently?
Okay, so, Coral was supposed to come back to school this year, but now she's doing OP somewhere.  Before she left she told me that last year while I was on 4th of July vacay in WI that Deli and Dan had sex in my house.
In my kitchen.
On my counter.
Like, right then I called up Deli and asked her if it was true. Her response was basically "....nooo...", which sounds like total bullshit and didn't help me believe her at all.
For the next two or so weeks, we don't talk at all. She doesn't even bother to say happy birthday to me.
Finally, the night before the first day of school, she texts me with this fucking ridiculous belated birthday wish, plus a claim that she hadn't told me earlier because she'd been doing stuff over the weekend with her parents and hadn't had service.
My birthday was on a Wednesday.
At first, I was chill, said thanks and blahblahblah. But when she asked me for a ride -which I was going to give her illegally, since I'm only supposed to have one person in the car and I was already giving Beth a ride-, I told her that I thought she was using me; she hadn't talked to me in weeks or very much at all over the summer and she hadn't even tried to convince me that Coral's allegations weren't true.
She minor-tweaked and still did absolutely nothing to make me believe her.
We've rarely spoken at school, besides two instances of 'small talk' when I needed to know something about some kids getting pulled over that she was involved in and giving her one of the slightly gross and caramel-tasting 'Candy Corn' Dots our Chemistry teacher gave us, and she purposely talks to some of my friends when I'm there -just to bug me, I think.
When Beth asked her if we were ever going to work shit out, she said there was nothing to work out; I just didn't believe her.
There's been more going on with her concerning other people this school year -which has only lasted about a week- that includes but is not limited to her life-long friend in the next town and Beth.
Beth says she's digging herself a grave-type hole.
I definitely agree, but mostly out of anger really.


Ugh. I'm cold.
I didn't have school today because the teachers had some seminar thing.
So I've been lying around, doing nothing.
Drinking water.
Kind of but not really eating....
Watching Jumper and stuff.
I'm bored.
Homecoming is next week and I want to work on shirts with Jean and Beth, but Jean has the shirts and both of them are supposedly busy today.
My friends suck dorks.
And dorks are whale penises, in case you didn't know.
Anyways, I'm hopefully going to be sticking around this time...
If you can't tell from the length of this post, I really need an outlet to vent that won't turn around and stab me in the back.
Also, I've been reading, and commenting some. My computer is still being a total bitch about commenting, but I try.
You guys need to keep your heads up and keep going.
You're all lovely.

Laterz.

1 comment:

  1. I know this comment is way late, but if it helps in anyway, it sounds like that friend of urs deli, isn't much of a good friend, but I am sure you knew that, I guess the only advice I could give you is ignore all that nonsense drama, and if she did end up having sex in ur house, then that just shows she has no respect for you. I hope u were able to work out the situation and that you made the right choice to stay away from people like that. Wish you the best for your school year. stay safe and awesome :)

    much love
    xoxo

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