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Thursday, June 9, 2011

School and Behind the Wheel.

School's out for summer. :)
And I've almost pulled an all-nighter...
Whoa, just realized that.

Anyways, I'm really fucking anxious/nervous!
I have Behind the Wheel.
I don't want to go, I don't want to go, I. DON'T. WAN'T. TO. GO.
This must sound totally nutters.
Why don't I want to go?
I DON'T LIKE MEETING NEW PEOPLE BY MYSELF.
I'M SELF CONSCIOUS ABOUT EVERYTHING -that includes driving.
He's going to think I'm dumb.
It's going to be really awkward, and I get talkative or silent in awkward situations.
If I'm silent too long, I feel like I can't even talk.
I CAN'T GO.
God, it doesn't even feel like summer.
I hate this. I really do.
I don't even know anymore.
I have to be at my school in 12 hours and 40 minutes...
SHIT. I should've gone to sleep forever ago.
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK.

1 comment:

  1. I hope you got some sleep for your behind the wheel. Try to not freak out, I hated the idea of it too, and the guy I had never said anything other than things like "okay turn on blah blah street" and then went back to being quiet He said he didn't want talking, he wanted concentration lol. I hope it went well.

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